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Just returning after a LONG time

Just returning after a long time away...I needed just to put something down. I've been struggling for a while but things are way better and now I need to keep the momentum going....life is good and throws you curve balls to learn lessons. No one will appreciate you if you don't appreciate yourself first. I'm now on a mission to rediscover myself.....lets begin

New Groups I created

Hey guys, just created two new groups for NYC and the Bronx.....If you are in the area and are a big guy, bear, chub, or cub, feel free to join, it's your group and I wanted to make it that way....I also created a Bronx one, and will do the same for every boro....Hope to see you guys there soon...

Long time.....but worth it

Hey everyone, it's been a while but I wanted to make sure I caught up with my page...I have been doing a lot but I am definitely in a different place since last time I logged on....I have moved on to a new and better position, still climbing that ladder.....I have decided to go back to school for my MBA, so that will happen this coming Fall....I have started to workout again and have been searcning for a place to move.  So therefore I have to say that although I have not been on here, I have been productive....I wanna wish everyone a Happy New Year and hope to be on more often this new year.......ohh and by the way, I'm so happy for OBAMA to start his presidency.....LOVE IT.... 

Something called "LOVE"

Wow, it's been a while since I have written in here but I have been busy getting to know a real special guy.  It's funny how we never believe that when you least expect it the man you have been waiting for will come into your life.  Well, I believe it now, because I am dating a guy out of all place, California.  Now long distance would be a problem but with him, he gives me the attention I seek and deserve as I do him.  As well, he is planning to move to NYC in 8 to 9 months so I can't wait until he is actually here.  

I have to say for those that are still looking, STOP...I can tell you that out of all people, I was VERY aggressive and intent on trying to find someone but it never came or rather I was meeting guys that were not up to my standards....WELL now that has changed.....Thanks baby.... 

Why do they cry...

Why do my eyes cry...
Feelings held deep like the depths of the ocean uncovered
Depths of secrets long held
Depths of shame too tramautic to  share
Love has caused my tears
not love found but love yet to come true

Love so true, strong and unconditional that tears form
Tears form without permissions 
without restrictions 
caused by a love so strong yet its not present
not physically but emotionally and spiritually
a love that knows me, soothes me, caresses me, 
this love warms me like a spring day, 
holds me like a Fall Breeze

I look for the diamond in the rough
not the glimmer all chase
I seek from within not without
I see your heart and feel your love
I don't see your face and fall for your smile or eyes
You are beautiful in and out...Love 

You make me cry without cause, not cause for the tears
but no cause for you have yet to enter my view 

May. 28th, 2008

 I just had to post this since my friend sent it to me via e-mail and its so motivating that I figured it should be shared.  Hope it motivates you to make those dreams come true.  Remember: a goal is dream with a timeline, so give those dreams of yours a date, and see them come true.

Tips for an Exceptional, Superb & PowerfulLife!

1.) Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate antidepressant.

2.) Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Buy a lock if you have to.

3.) Always pray and make time to exercise.

4.) Spend more time with people over the age of 70 And under the age of Six.

5.) Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants And eat less foods that are manufactured in Plants.

6.) Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat broccoli, almonds & walnuts.

7.) Try to make at least three people smile each day.

8.) Clear your clutter from your house, car, desk and let new and flowing energy into your life.

9.) Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
Instead, Invest your energy in the positive present moment.

10.) Realize that life is a school and you are here To learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum
That appear and fade away like algebra class .......but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

11.) Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a  layman And dinner like a  begger .

12.) Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

13.) Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

14.) Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

15.) You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

16.) Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

17.) Don't compare your life to others'. You have no Idea what their journey is all about.

18.) Ladies - Go on and burn those 'special' scented Candles, use the 600 thread count sheets, the good
China and wear fancy  clothes now. Stop waiting for a special occasion. Every day is special.

19.) No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

20.) Frame every so-called disaster with these Words: 'In five years, will this matter?'

21.) Forgive everyone for everything.

22.) What other people think of you is none of your Business.

23.) Time heals almost everything. Give time, time!

24.) However good or bad a situation is, it will Change.

25.) Your job won't take care of you when you are Sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch with them.

26.) Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

27.) Envy is a waste of time. You already have all You need. God provides, remember?!

28.) The best is yet to come.

29.) No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

30.) Do the right thing!

31.) Call your family often.

32.) Each night before you go to bed complete the Following statements: 'I am thankful for __________.'
Today I accomplished _________.

33.) Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.

34.) Enjoy the ride. Remember that this is not Disney World and you certainly don't want a fast
Pass. You only have one ride through life so make The most of it and enjoy the ride.

LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH. LIFE'S A  gift. that's why it's called  PRESENT ... UNWRAP IT! Have a Blessed day


 I finally made it to Disney thanks to my best friends and I had a great time, I was there with them but as well met a great guy and I don't know how to say it better but he is a sweetheart.  I don't know if everyone has had this feeling but I know that I had the feeling that he is a just a sweetheart and a good hearted person.  I spent time with him and was sad to leave and I hope that one day I am able to show him that he is the great guy that I know he is and deserves to be treated that way.  But me being in NYC and him in Orlando makes it difficult but not impossible.  Well, I will keep all updated but my adventures in Orlando have begun, let's see where it goes...


 Just needed to write a little bit, it has been a crazy two weeks with planning a short trip to Orlando, than Memorial day to DC for Black Pride, than to Disney two weeks later after that.  So I am most definitely going to be running around.  Well, life has been extremely good, taking care of number 1 and getting to meet new friends....Well, until next time, I should be posting some stuff about my visits to Florida and my time with my new friend...CAN'T WAIT

What a weekend....

 Well, talk about a whole lotta adventure this weekend....(Please keep in mind that I am not one to have back to back events) SO I went out Friday night with my friend from work, she is the coolest freakin Lesbian I swear and her girlfriend, so we are down in the Village and I invited them to a Bear thing in the Dugout but they had made friends with their striaght friends so they couldn't come.  So here I go into the party kinda holding my breath since there is a tiny number of people that I do not associate with since there has been varied analyization of the truth.  Well, as I was there, I ran into people that I thought would not give me a second look but before long we were having a laugh and a great time.  I was a little aprenhensive to associate with them but I realized that we were able to associate in a social setting.  Granted I was broad with my conversation and never gave too much information but it was a good time.  

Then Saturday I was in Long Island with my buddies again and ran a few errands for him as it was his partners birthday so I love to drive and so I was happy to get in the drivers seat.  Great friends, food and fun....A lot of kids as well so it was cool....

Nice to see what I want to have in the future, house, family, kids, and great friends to enjoy it all with....one day, it will happen